Wednesday, August 16, 2017

‘God’s Crime Scene for Kids’ Mystery Investigation Kit Giveaway

Join your children in learning how to determine the most reasonable cause for everything we see in creation with a real-life detective! In God’s Crime Scene for Kids, J. Warner Wallace shows kids ages 8 to 12 what skills are needed to solve Jason’s mystery. Jason uncovers a mystery in his grandmother’s attic. He and his friends, Hannah, Daniel and Jasmine, enlist the help of Detective Jeffries at the Jr. Detective’s Academy. Your kids will look at evidence in the universe that demonstrates God is the creator and ultimately learn how to make their own case for God’s existence.

Help your kids become detectives who investigate creation for signs of God and His creativity by entering to win the Mystery Investigation Kit!

 

One grand prize winner will receive:
Enter today by clicking the icon below, but hurry! The giveaway ends on August 31. The winner will be announced September 1 on the Litfuse blog.





{MORE ABOUT GOD’S CRIME SCENE FOR KIDS}


God’s Crime Scene for Kids: Investigate Creation with a Real Detective
(David C Cook, September 2017)
Hone your reasoning skills as you investigate evidence in the universe to determine the most reasonable cause for everything we see in creation.
In this companion to Cold-Case Christianity for Kids, Jason uncovers a mystery in his grandmother’s attic. He and his friends, Hannah, Daniel and Jasmine, enlist the help of Detective Jeffries at the Jr. Detective’s Academy. Along the way, they develop the skills needed to investigate the mystery and the evidence of God’s existence. The cadets learn logical-thinking skills as they examine the contents of a mysterious box and the vast universe.
In God’s Crime Scene for Kids, real-life detective J. Warner Wallace shows kids ages 8 to 12 what skills are needed to solve Jason’s mystery, and at the same time looks at evidence in the universe that demonstrates God is the creator. Ultimately, kids will learn how to make their own case for God’s existence.

J. Warner and Susie Wallace{MORE ABOUT J. WARNER AND SUSIE WALLACE}


J. Warner and Susie Wallace have been training young people in the church setting for over a decade. J. Warner is a cold-case homicide detective who has been featured on Dateline, FOX News, Court TV and other crime-related television shows. A former atheist, he is the author of Cold-Case Christianity: God’s Crime Scene, Forensic Faith, and Cold-Case Christianity for Kids. He has a master’s degree in theology and is the founder of www.ColdCaseChristianity.com. Susie has a master’s degree in speech pathology and co-writes (and edits) all the kids books in this series. J. Warner and Susie have four children and live in southern California.
Find out more about J. Warner and at http://www.coldcasechristianityforkids.com.

Monday, August 14, 2017

This is my non-blog on #bachelorinparadise

This is my blog post to say I am officially not blogging on Bachelor in Paradise which Chris Harrison promises really is the "Most dramatic and shocking season ever."

I currently have the TV on and tuned into BIP as I am catching up on some other blog posts and possibly some crafty business stuff tonight. I may or may not watch the season through. I find there are a number of shows I have lost interested in because I simply don't have the mental energy. That is especially true after work today. (Actually, the past few weeks. I'm just so busy.)

Besides, I don't have the readership on my Bachelor blogs unless I really push it, and I don't have the time to do that. Like me, I'm not sure anyone cares anymore. These people here are too raunchy for words, worse than they were on the seasons of The Bachelor and The Bachelorette were. Plus it's produced for drama, and I can't handle recapping self-created drama. Life has enough of that. The world would be so much better if people acted the opposite of this.

So, I really don't even know why the TV is on. This show should have ended when production was shut down.

I need to do some analyzing on my own self-torture. I obviously have issues!

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Awesome God

Last Wednesday night, we had a class full, so I finally got a video!

I have no idea why I was so loud and what was up with my voice breaking in and out. 


Awesome God

By Rich Mullins
Used by permission. CCLI # 1132191


Our God is an awesome God;
He reigns from Heaven above
With wisdom, pow’r, and love.
Our God is an awesome God!

Our God is an awesome God;
He reigns from Heaven above
With wisdom, pow’r, and love.
Our God is an awesome God!

Our God is an awesome God!

Our God is an awesome God!

Saturday, August 12, 2017

I never get around to the bulk of my to-do list

On any given day, I never get to the bulk of my to-do list, and that spills over to the weekend. Every Saturday. 

I end up running errands then get pulled into someone else's project (something Dad wants or needs done, for example) instead of whatever I creative project I wanted to get around to.

I went down to Not So Plain Jayne where we (The Crafty Dad and Daughter) now have some items. They sold a lot of book letters, so I went down to inventory what they needed me to bring back. I had planned for Dad to cut some more, but by the time I got home and started doing some stuff around the house, I got a text that people were asking about missing letters. So after I got through hanging up my paper flowers that have been sitting around for a month, I had to dig out letters.

Before I continue along those lines, this is how they are currently hanging. This room is so dark with the paneling, it's hard to take a good picture with the flash. I'm not sure if I like the arrangement or not.



So anyway, I went down there to take books and ended up staying hours helping to rearrange stuff at the shop and running around town to take more stuff down there. 

When I got home, Brian and Amanda came to pick up some of the computers occupying a big chunk of space. I'm glad to get those out.

When I moved the bookshelf out last weekend to take down to the new shop, I had stacks of piled up. I had to take everything off another shelf to move it across the room. Then, I had move all the books from both shelves back onto the one I moved. Then, I had to move tables around the craft studio to get the antique desk I bought at an auction a couple of weeks ago to a corner. Oh, and it wasn't just all books on that shelf as is obvious in this picture:


Needless to say, I did not get the desk painted though I did buy the chalk paint to do so. That's another project for another day. Week. Month. Heck, it may be after the first of the year at the rate I'm going. 

Isn't my life fascinating?

Friday, August 11, 2017

It didn't turn out to be a complete disaster


Last Saturday night I had big time buyer's remorse over that boatload of laptops I bought. I was having issues with ones were supposed to be working. Working on computer issues gives me major anxiety, so all this mess didn't help.

I had two good ones that I knew were good apart from the two other lots, and for two days I kept trying to upgrade Windows on them. One worked and installed 10 while the other one was stuck on 8.

At one point, my brother called and asked, "Is this Best Buy?"

My prompt answer was, "This is Worst Buy!"

Then I went through like 50 others to see if I could get logged in. I finally came up with enough to cover all the kids in my sister-in-law's first grade class, so I was able to recoup most of my investment.

I still have 14 that I think will work if I can get someone to crack the passwords. (Where is Huck from Scandal when you need him?) There are 20-something I have to test that are "Computers 2 Go" that should work for a classroom if anyone is interested. If I can get those two sets in some kind of working order, it will really help a school out.

Then, there are some we don't have chargers the right size to test, a stack with broken screens and another pile of non-functioning. I'm hoping to sell for parts to someone who works on old computers to rehab them for ministries or to sell. I have to finish figuring out my inventory on those first. Getting something for those would be really awesome.

I also have a large supply of cigarette lighter chargers for the 1st graders who drive. I have no clue what I am going to do with those.

While I have been avoiding testing one group, I really need to. I'm tired of my house looking like a warehouse and I know Dad wants the non-working out of his garage. Every time mom thinks the garage is going to be cleared out (like after dad got his workshop out back or a garage sale), it feels back up. I'm going to be hearing from her soon.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Mother of sons with autism offers encouragement and reassurance

Part 1 of an interview with Karla Akins,
Author of A Pair of Miracles

It was not long after Karla Akins and her husband brought their adopted sons home from the hospital they realized the boys were not behaving and developing as they should. A few months later they learned the boys were on the fetal alcohol disorders spectrum, and by the time they were four, they were diagnosed with autism. Twenty years ago, autism was not as prevalent as it is today, and Akins admits she knew nothing about it. When she voiced her hopes her autistic sons could learn to read and function independently, doctors warned her those expectations would never be met. Despite those warnings, she set out to prove all things are possible through God.

Laced with humor and compassion, A Pair of Miracles is the heartwarming story of the Akins family’s journey of raising Isaac and Isaiah. However, the book is more than a moving biography from a mom on the front lines. It is a powerful tool, full of practical help for parents, educators and church members working with children who have intellectual disabilities, speech impairments and other limitations on the autism spectrum. It is also a challenge to the church to welcome and celebrate all of its members, no matter their abilities.

Q: A few months after you brought your adopted your twin sons home from the hospital, you learned they were born with Fetal Alcohol Disorder. How did they behave differently from other children, and what clued you into the fact something else might be wrong?

The twins screamed constantly and were very, very difficult to calm. They had an amazing stamina when it came to screaming and could scream for hours. They would start screaming even before they opened their eyes to wake up.

Doctors chalked this all up to the twins being premature. Because they were premature and born to a “low-functioning” mother, they didn’t really give us any other explanation. It was a given in their mind that due to their prematurity they would have unusual behaviors. At three months they were diagnosed with microcephaly (their skulls too small for their brains), and it was assumed, because of their facial features and small head circumference, it was due to fetal alcohol disorder. Fetal Alcohol Syndrome Disorder (FASD) is difficult to diagnose (at least it was back then) because you need to have the mother’s admission that she drank while pregnant. We didn’t have that admission, but the twins are textbook cases of the syndrome.

When they were diagnosed with microcephaly, I was determined they wouldn’t keep that diagnosis. I laid my hands on their heads every single time I touched them and prayed their heads would grow. God answered that prayer. They have regular-sized head circumference! Truly a miracle. If they didn’t, their cognitive functioning would be much worse. 

Q: How old were the boys when they were diagnosed with autism? How much did you know about autism before their diagnosis?

The twins were four years old when they were diagnosed, but I knew something was wrong years before the official diagnosis. Not only were they a textbook case of FASD, but they are of autism as well. It’s important to remember that autism can have co-morbid diagnoses. In other words, having autism doesn’t mean you can’t have other diagnoses as well. Did the FASD cause the autism? We have no way of knowing.

When the boys received their autism diagnosis, the only thing I knew about autism was from the movie Rain Man, which means I knew nothing! Plus, autism is different in every individual.

In 1997-98, the only thing I had was a rickety old IBM computer someone had given me. It barely worked and was one of those with the green screen, but I used it to hook up to AOL. (I can still hear that dial-up sound in my ears!) Once online, I connected with an amazing crew of mamas and grandmas who also had children with autism. It was those women who led me to resources. I have to tell you, we were on the cutting edge of research in those days, but as far as early intervention was concerned, it was very difficult to get anyone to listen to us regarding what our children needed to have to succeed. It was very, very hard to get people’s attention. If it weren’t for those women, I don’t know how I’d have survived those early years. They were a lifeline.

Q: What was the doctors’ prognosis of how the boys would be able to function as they grew and matured? How did you work through the grief that followed the news?

The working title of this book was Pie in the Sky. I was told by a psychologist my hopes and dreams for them to function independently was “pie in the sky thinking” and I “better get over that right now.” I never went back to her. The boys have done much, much more than anyone thought possible.

For instance, that particular doctor told me they’d never read, be able to live independently or speak. Other doctors simply didn’t know and told me I would have to wait and see. Only one doctor I worked with was sympathetic to me, and it wasn’t anything he said, but it was how he treated me with such kindness and respect when we’d see him. I wish there were more pediatricians like that today. He never gave an opinion about the future. He just helped me get through each medical crisis and was very encouraging to me. He made me feel like I was competent.

Today the twins walk. They talk and understand everything that’s said to them. Their speech and language is a little difficult to understand at times, but they function well enough to send text messages and talk on the phone.

I worked through my grief about their diagnosis in stages. In some ways, I already knew something was wrong. Developmental pediatricians were tracking their physical development, and we could already see some things about their development weren’t right, such as the size of their heads. I also knew the way they reacted to sensory input was way off, and they weren’t meeting their developmental milestones on time, such as sitting up, walking and talking. Still, even though I knew something was wrong, I went through all the normal stages of grief — from anger to acceptance. I still do go through some of the stages. All parents with special needs kids deal with grief on a day-to-day basis. It cycles through us at various times depending on what we’re dealing with. Mostly, though, I’m so proud of my guys. They’ve worked hard to get where they are today.

Q: When the boys were young, in a meeting with your pastor, he asked, “Do you think you missed the will of God when you adopted them?” Even doctors made hurtful comments to you about your boys. How did you respond?

Well, I’d like to say the conversation doesn’t still bother me, but it does. I do realize some people just don’t “get” adoption and disability issues. I’ve forgiven the pastor and those doctors, but just thinking about those conversations makes me shake my head with incredulity. Some people don’t have filters. They just say whatever they’re thinking.

I was furious, of course, when those conversations took place. I never responded negatively or rudely to them at the time, but I did stew on what they said. I’m the type of person who when you tell me I can’t do something or can’t make something better, it fuels me to prove you wrong. I used those conversations to motivate me rather than discourage me.

Q: You talk about bargaining with God and even encourage readers to “wrestle with God” in difficult times. What were some of the questions you had for God in the early years of raising Isaac and Isaiah?

I would actually pray for forgiveness from God for wanting to adopt because I sometimes worried about what it was doing to our family. It definitely took away the tranquility in the house. I am a huge peace-lover and maker. I crave quiet spaces. I also asked my husband to forgive me for pushing for adoption, but he never once wavered or questioned our decision. That helped me a lot in the twins’ younger years when they were so, so hard to care for.

I still have a lot of questions for God where disabilities and pain in the world are concerned. However, I do know the devil hates humans and wants them to suffer because we are created in God’s image. Still, God’s ways are not our ways, and I truly believe He will use our struggles for His purpose and glory if we let Him.

Q: What have your boys taught you about God, and how has your faith grown by being their mom?

The boys have taught me more about everything in life and especially about God. I’ve never seen greater faith than theirs. I’ve never seen joy such as theirs. The twins have amazing faith. To me, they’re spiritual giants. Their faith in God inspires me every single day. Their spirits aren’t at all disabled. Their spirits are as healthy as yours and mine and probably even more so because of their childlike faith.

They are very tender-hearted toward the Lord, and they know to turn to Him for help. Just a few days ago we had a situation that made Isaac anxious. He asked if we could all pray, so we stood in a circle and prayed. He sobbed like a baby, crying out to the Lord for help. That is faith. Without faith it’s impossible to please God (Hebrews 11). Their faith amazes me. I am eager to interact with them in heaven when they are completely healed and to talk to Jesus about them and how their prayers affected heaven. They are true prayer warriors. When I need prayer, I ask them to pray because of their great faith.

They’ve taught me what’s important in life. I’m not as materialistic as I might have been otherwise because autism doesn’t allow you to have breakables. Doors get kicked in. Walls get holes in them. Furniture gets mauled. They’ve taught me not to sweat the small stuff. My tolerance for imperfection is extremely broad because of them. Societal constraints don’t worry me. Our yard might not be the prettiest in the neighborhood because we’re so busy supervising the twins, but the love in our house is immeasurable. It’s far from perfect, trust me, but when I focus on the blessing these boys are to others (they love serving people), I’m deeply humbled. I wish I could be as sweet as they are.

My faith has grown as their mom because what the world said could never happen, God made happen. When doctors told me they were microcephalic, I refused to accept it. As I mentioned earlier, I constantly laid my hands on their heads and told them to grow. They have normal-sized heads now. Doctors said they’d not walk, but they walk. Doctors said they wouldn’t read or do much independently, and with God’s grace we’ve proved them wrong.

Q: Tell us about Isaac and Isaiah today. In what ways are they able to function independently in ways the doctors never expected? In what areas do they still need help?

They do so many things on their own! They have a golf cart they use for transportation to their part-time jobs and other places in town. Fortunately, we live in a community that allows it. They use their smartphones and iPads to communicate and read things. They attend church and help with various duties there. Isaac helps with the sound system, and Isaiah loves helping in children’s church. They are amazing helpers. They love helping people.

The twins will probably always need to live with someone who can protect them from being taken advantage of. They have a difficult time counting money, so it’s easy to cheat them. They can also be talked into doing things, as they are quite na├»ve and gullible. They have dual-diagnoses of fetal alcohol disorder and intellectual disabilities, so that makes dealing with them a bit more involved. They still need to have reminders for daily self-care and function at about the level of an 8- to 11-year-old. They still need to be prompted to do their daily chores (don’t we all?) and so forth.



Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Super Hero Kids Giveaway with David C Cook!

DOES YOUR CHILD LOVE COMIC BOOKS?

HOW ABOUT SUPER HEROES?

Now is your chance to have DC and Marvel illustrator
Sergio Cariello make your child's dream come true!

 

David C Cook is proud to introduce the newest book in the Action Bible collection: The Action Storybook Bible (coming October 2017). Pre-order The Action Storybook Bible from Amazon, Barnes & Noble, or ChristianBook.com to reserve your copy today. Plus click the graphic below to enter to have a chance to win an illustration of your child as a super hero by Action Bible artist Sergio Cariello (who has also illustrated comics for DC and Marvel!).

 

The giveaway is open until September 11, 2017, 5:00pm MST.  Your entry must be received by then to be eligible. Five winners will be chosen at random from eligible entrants.

{THE ACTION STORYBOOK BIBLE}


Families see the Bible in motion and put their faith into action! The Action Storybook Bible invites families with young children to explore God’s redemptive story together. An entry point into the world of The Action Bible, it tells of the amazing creation story, powerful kings who reigned over ancient Israel, God’s miraculous gift of eternal life through Jesus, and more! God’s promise for the world is displayed throughout every page. Discover your family’s place in God’s incredible story and together put your faith into action! Interactive features include:
  • Fifteen key episodes from God’s Word—each one loaded with several stories along with over 350 brand-new illustrations throughout.
  • Short and easy readings—for children ages eight and under with rich, colorful images.
  • Life, Faith, Action! features—conclude every episode and invite families to talk about how God moves in the stories, how to see God in life today, how to put faith into action, and how to easily talk to God with a suggested prayer.
  • Hall of Fame visual index—the place to look up favorite Bible characters by discovering their icon connections and finding them in the stories.
Learn more and purchase a copy here.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Finding freedom, purpose and joy in life’s mundane

Author of Sacred Mundane

Many women feel trapped in everyday drudgery and disappointment, in dull domestic duties and jobs that don’t offer fulfillment. The mundane day-in, day-out life seems like a far cry from the abundant, purposeful life they envisioned as Christians. In Sacred Mundane: How to Find Freedom, Purpose, and Joy (Kregel Publications), author and blogger Kari Patterson helps readers find freedom, purpose and joy in the life they are living right now.

Q: The word “mundane” usually has a negative connotation. How do you define mundane?

Mundane refers to the ordinary, everyday, commonplace, unexciting stuff of life. Yes, it does usually have a negative connotation, and that’s the point! We tend to devalue and despise the mundane, but that is where our transformation takes place. When we overlook this area, we miss the greatest catalyst for effecting true change in our lives. For Naaman, the Jordan River had negative connotations, which was why God led him to dip down into those waters. It is precisely the waters we most want to avoid where our transformation is found.

Q: Explain the life-sentence exercise you ask your readers to do in the introduction of Sacred Mundane.

In 2 Kings, we read, “Naaman was a mighty man of valor, but he was a leper.” He had so much going for him, but his leprosy threatened to steal it all. I ask readers to consider their own lives and prayerfully simmer down their own life into a sentence. We all have so much going for us; we are made in the image of God with gifts, skills, relationships, abilities, potential . . . but there’s something that limits, hinders, robs, and binds us, and in quiet, prayerful moments it will likely come to the surface. There’s something we just can’t kick. So often we’re vaguely aware of the areas we want to change, but we don’t take the time to narrow down and identify the one thing that most hinders us. We feel overwhelmed or discouraged. Identifying the one thing helps us see more clearly how God wants to use our mundane to make us more like Him. 

Q: You write we all have something that limits our freedom, confuses our purpose, and steals our joy that we try to hide from others yet it continues to grow. How do we identify what that thing is and remove it from our lives?

The good news is that God wants us free even more than we do. As we sit quietly before Him and genuinely desire to hear from Him, He will show us. We could also ask a close friend, spouse, or someone who truly loves us, “What one thing do you see keeping me from being all God created me to be?” I find it helpful to think of it not as something that’s “wrong with us,” but simply something that’s keeping us from being all God made us to be. It wasn’t Naaman’s fault he had leprosy. Some of our hang-ups are the result of our poor choices, some are a result of what others have done to us, and some are just the consequences of living in a fallen world. The point isn’t to determine whose “fault” it is or to shame us for our weakness or issue, but to find wholeness, freedom, joy.

Q: How does desperation lead to transformation?

Change is hard, but it happens when the discomfort of our problem exceeds the discomfort of changing. When we are finally sick to death of a situation, when we’ve had it with this struggle, that’s when we really seek change. In recovery circles, we would call it “rock bottom” — we each have to reach rock bottom in our situation before we are truly ready to change.  My hope is readers have reached their rock bottom or find it in reading the book and become ready to do whatever it takes to let God change their lives.

Q: Why is it sometimes unsettling to let God into our lives when He is right outside, knocking on the door?

It’s unsettling because it means letting go of control. Our greatest temptation will always be to want to rule our own lives, to be our own God, and to do it our way. However, God loves us too much to let us do that because He knows we’ll do a terrible job. We aren’t God, and we were never meant to be. He’s the only One who can handle the weight of that responsibility, so He patiently knocks and waits for us to let Him in. We’re hesitant because of fear and not wanting to give up control. We forget how good He is and how He always is working for our good . . . if only we could trust Him more. 

Q: When you were in college, you were on fire for God, yet miserable at the same time. Why were you so unhappy during this period of time?

Life was so very ordinary and full of disappointment. The man I loved had just broken my heart and told me we would never be together (we are now married), my job was full of mundane, tedious tasks, my relationships, especially with my roommate, included the usual conflict and awkwardness, plus I had the challenges of leading 400 college students. I hadn’t yet learned all of life — even the struggling, frustration, irritating, disappointing parts — were part of my sacred offering to God. I genuinely wanted to please God, so it was life-changing for me to realize I could please Him simply by offering up every ordinary day as a sacrifice of praise to Him. Hebrews 13:15 says through Jesus’ sacrifice of atonement we can offer our sacrifice of praise.

Q: On your blog (also named Sacred Mundane), you wrote, “Several years ago God wrecked us for ‘normal,’ and we started doing weird stuff.” What exactly did you and your husband start doing?

By nature, I am very introverted. I like my space, my stuff, and my organized, controlled, neat, and tidy life. I wanted a secure retirement account, a successful writing career, security, and other things like that. In 2010, my husband and I read The Hole in our Gospel, and God completely turned our world upside down. Even though we’d “known” these things, we’d never really known them.

We began seeing the kingdom of God is all about giving away, taking the low seat, preferring others, and storing up treasure in heaven. We sold our dream home and moved to “the other side of the tracks” into a dumpy little rental to plant a church in a lower-income area. We opened up our home and started living in community. We became involved with those coming out of alcohol addiction and even had some ladies live with us who were coming out of homelessness and addiction. For a few years we gave half our income away, and I will be giving away 100% of my proceeds from this book.

None of this is spectacular — lots of people are doing the same — but from the world’s perspective, it’s weird. In fact, our local TV news did a story on our downsize and our commitment to frugality because it seemed strange. Apparently following Jesus is weird to the world! Why would you give half your income away? Why would you downsize unless you had to? Why would you let unsavory people into your home? Because Jesus is awesome, and we finally saw the value in investing in the Kingdom more than in our own little temporal kingdom here on earth.

Q: Why is the mundane so sacred, and how can we learn to embrace it?

The mundane is sacred because that’s where we live. It’s the majority of our lives. Sure, we have some mountaintop experiences. We have vacations and high moments; we have wedding days and exhilarating experiences. But the vast majority of our lives is spent in the midst of ordinary days, so that is why it’s so sacred — because it’s where we live, it’s where God is, dwelling inside us by His Spirit. It’s where our guard is down, and we’re not performing; we’re just our raw and real selves, doing our raw and real thing, and that is where God meets us and makes us more like Him.



Monday, August 7, 2017

The finale of #thebachelorette was not a shocker

I don't really think there is going to be a surprise when it comes to what happens at the end of the night on The Bachelorette. So what if Rachel has a running commentary through the evening on the set of After the Final Rose?

No one believes she has anything going on with Eric. She wants an official engagement which Peter hasn't been ready for. She's been into Bryan from the get go, whether I have gotten it or not.

Rachel is kind of nervous watching it back. She hasn't watched his episode back and usually watches by herself. This all went down in May. The three men are all watching in their own rooms with nervous faces like they don't know how it all went down. Maybe they said something to the cameras that they didn't say to Rachel and area about to get busted.

I just saw a Tweet from Chris Harrison that was a few hours ago about the rehearsal for the live show. I'm not sure what there was to rehearse, so how genuine is all this going to be?

Chris chats with Rachel a little bit about Peter before starting the episode. Rachel admits she was trying to stick it out with Peter, but knew something was going on since Geneva. In Spain, Peter asks what will happen if he's not ready to actually propose.

Rachel gets emotional because she realizes how much she cares for him. She knows Peter cares a lot for her, but she doesn't want to just date someone when it is all said and done. She had a five year relationship she thought was moving towards marriage, but never got there.

Rachel doesn't question Peter's feelings, but thinks she needs more time to fix the problem because she thinks Peter is fighting what's going on. She gives him the invitation to the suite. Peter wants to spend as much time as humanly possible with her, so accepts.

Something is still seeming too much like the old relationship Rachel had. She hopes for clarity in the morning, but we know that isn't likely. If there is, she'll get confused again.

The next morning, Peter says his doubts are starting to go away. He tells her he thinks all their time together gives them a lot to think about in the coming days when they are away from each other.

By the way, I had to go back and look at my post from two weeks ago to confirm that she had already gone on her overnight with Eric. I thought she had, but I couldn't remember. Too much has gone through my head in the past two weeks. If you are like me, and don't remember, he thought it went great and their connection is awesome. There was no substance to their discussions.

Last date in the fantasy suite round: Bryan

They are going to go horseback riding through vineyards. After riding a while, they talk about how it went with her family. He says he was honest with them and "this it went good." It went well, not good Dr. Bryan, but anywhoo.

Rachel wouldn't change anything about her date, but there's something... or not something. For some reason, there was something off. Cue clip of Rachel watching live with a look on her face.

Now Chris Harrison is going to make her talk about it. It's hard because she knows what she was feeling at the time. But she can't say much, of course.

Later in the date Bryan acknowledges that he knows it has been hard, but he realizes something was a little off and his energy has been a little down too. Getting that said brings spirits up, it seems. She hands off the fantasy suite card.

Of course, the next morning, all is right with the world.

This next rose ceremony is the one that Rachel went home on, so she knows what it's all about.

Bryan is the kind of man she wants. Secure and confident. She thinks they are in a good place, but wants to make sure they aren't living in a fantasy.

With Eric, their relationship has moved at such an extreme rate. She isn't confused. She knows how he feels and there have been no speed bumps. (I still haven't seen all this!)

When it comes to Peter, she doesn't know what he wants, so she doesn't know what she wants.

The first rose goes tBo Bryan. She decides to give the second rose to Peter.

It's time for Rachel to say goodbye to Eric. Rachel tells Eric she loves him, but is not "in love." He thanks her for being open which allowed him to be open and learn a lot in the process. "Troof be known, I will always love you. It's the troof," he says.

Eric's going to miss the whole entirety of her he muses as he drives away.

In the rose ceremony, Rachel makes a point of saying she expects a proposal. Peter knows he has one date left. 

Before we get to the final dates, Eric has to come out on the live show to talk. He talks how about Rachel said she loved him before getting dumped the next day. 

Rachel thought they had something great, but wasn't as far along with him as the others.

Eric says he was confident during the rose ceremony and wasn't really worried. He is grateful because he loved someone for the first time and was able to grow as a person.

The LAST date with Bryan involves a hot air balloon ride. He's a little nervous at first (as I would be too).  It has to be awkward for the balloon pilot and the camera man in such close quarters as the making out is going on. 

Bryan is ready to propose. He tells her he would be heartbroken to lose her and it would be a mistake if she picked anyone else.

Later on, laying across a bed, Bryan gives her a Spanish-English dictionary with special phrases she needs to know.

She really likes Peter, but she really wants him to be sure of a proposal. If he were more sure, I think he could be the one. He knows that what she said about wanting an engagement at the last rose ceremony was pointed at him. 

Rachel and Peter go to a monastery where a monk talks to them about marriage. He only wants to propose once. A proposal means marriage to him so he wants to be sure. Marriage doesn't scare him, multiple marriages scare him.

All the future talk is freaking her out. She doesn't think Peter wants a future with her because of how he talks about wanting to be sure about the person he proposes to, yet he talks about what they will be doing in the future so she is really confused.

Rachel didn't know what she was hoping for today. She thinks she's looking for something that is not there. She is looking for clarity. They talk in her room about the rose ceremony. Rachel says she was speaking to him. Peter says he realized that. Peter says his feelings are growing, but they are so recent that he doesn't feel like he's ready to ask her to marry him tomorrow. Yet, he doesn't want to lose her tomorrow.

Rachel says he confuses her because of all these future details he discusses with her. Yet, he's not ready for it now. Peter wants these steps to happen in time. Rachel doesn't want to get stuck in the same pattern she has with other men up until now. Peter apologizes it has taken him this long, but this would be acting on impulse. He wants to try to spend his life with her, but he is not ready to pull the trigger now. He chooses to have ONE OPPORTUNITY. She doesn't respect that.

She is really kind of mean about it. I get her goal at the end. Bryan is saying, "I want this and I want it with you now." That's what she wants. Peter is more cautious and serious about what relationships are. I understand what she wants, but she should be more respectful about why Peter can't give her what she wants.

Peter thinks Rachel is the right person, but that it's not the right time. They argue over how things won't be different tomorrow. He's willing to give up what he believes in to not lose her. Rachel asks if he will resent her for it. He hopes he's mature enough not to.

They go round and round and round about what she wants vs. what he's comfortable with. He can give her a great life, but if she wants to go off and have a mediocre life, she can do it. Peter tells her if she changes her mind, she knows where to find him. With that, he walks her to the door.

The whole thing is... she doesn't know what she wants. Why should he know?

Rachel and Chris Harrison talk about that evening. Rachel said she cried her eyelashes off. He points out that the two of them did not actually say goodbye. 

Peter has been watching in the back and is very emotional. He may even be laying in the fetal position between some boxes backstage. The fact that Peter is brought out now spoils what is to come. The conversation on stage is much the same as what they had talked about all night.

Peter had been asking himself if something was wrong with him. Rachel says the show was not meant for him because he just goes at a different pace.

Peter apologizes for making the comment he did about the mediocre life. He didn't remember saying it in the moment. Rachel is all, "oh, yes you did! I am living my best life." She's got some sass.

Rachel talks about being frustrated with it all. Peter is frustrated too. He feels attacked which she doesn't get. I understand why he's upset. He wouldn't change what happened that night, but he said it was hard as he walked by her eyelashes on the ground for two days because no one would clean them up.

That night was the end for Rachel, and when he tried to reach out to her again, the answer was no.

I feel like she is kind of being mean towards him. She was ruder than she needed to be.

Rachel is still feeling the meh of the night before as Bryan visits with Neil Lane to pick out a ring. 

When Bryan arrives, it is extremely windy. He says the same thing to her when he arrives that he did when he got out of the limo. I don't know what that was. It was in Spanish. 

The wind is so strong on the microphones they were unable to edit it out. She talks to him about looking for cracks since things didn't seem real. Then she talks about her forever and he tries to kiss her before she is finished with her speech. He can't wait to get down on his knee. She's jumping up and down to see her ring. It's like a hurricane is going to hit. Her hair is a complete mess from how it was styled.

She gives him the final rose and all is giddiness.

Back to the live show... 

Bring on the public displays of affection. He re-proposes so she can put on the ring.

Rachel wants a winter wedding, so they might be planning that. They don't know where they will live... LA? Dallas? Miami? They just want to bring their lives together.

There isn't much more of them to share. It's on to other things.

They move on to previews of Bachelor in Paradise and what happened when production was shut down after whatever went down with Corinne and DiMario. Then production was back on and the season would air.

Earlier tonight I thought I might be tempted to blog about BIP even though I said I would not. What else do I have to do, right? (WRONG - I have so much other stuff to do. So much.)

After seeing these previews, there is no way I am going to blog on all this smut. I don't like these people and it's a hot skanky mess.

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Good Old Noah

A throw back from three years ago when the kids had already been making animal noises in class. Some of the kids would probably be mortified now. I apologize for you mostly hearing me sing.